Purposely not seeing me

You pass me in the halls
Like you never knew me.
Keep walking on by,
Purposely not seeing me.
I watch you with envy,
As you laugh with your new friends,
And wonder how you do it.
How you forgot me so easily.
And you keep walking on by,
Looking the other way.
I still watch you with awe
While you just look on,
Your eyes are a sheet of ice,
Solid enough to walk on.
My heart's turned to stone,
But I hope you don't know,
That I still wish you were here,
Spilling secrets with cheer.
I search in your laugh,
Your sing-songy voice,
For even the slightest hint of a stutter.
And again, I wonder,
How do you do it?
I know you well enough to know it's an act.
You're trying to keep that ice in your eyes,
But, for just a moment, I swear,
Your eyes cast toward me-
And I'll promise you here-
They did for an instant flutter and flare.
They did so quickly,
It was barely a blur,
But for a moment all I saw
Was sorrow and care.
It left just as fast,
Though I wish that it hadn't.
Sometimes, when you pass,
I still wonder with awe,
How you stay bottled up,
Ready to fall.