My Revelation Today

To write this I need a moment to reflect the
self no one sees.  Who am I and who I have
been its true my path is long and misconstrued.

Where does one begin and even yet to begin within;
to peel back layers of a complicated  onion. 
I don't know me, you
don't know me the reality is does anyone really.
To know what it is that lies so deep suffocated
by life to peel the layers seems obsurd
to understand me you must read my words.

Here I am this is true blood,  heart and lungs
in front of you.  But don't think one single
heartbeat you decipher whats inside of me.
I have learned so early on when I'm knocked
down and there is no where to turn inside of
me is where you will find my safety net
yet unfound.

I love and I live each and every day and if
you have problems send them my way.  But
don't expect every twitch and twill on my
expression and given at my free will.

We all have walked a hundred miles with
twists and turns we manage a smile.  But
some of us mainly me cannot express
what you can't see. My heart is big enormous
though from which loves pours to overflow.

I don't have answers cause its the questions I lack
you give not yet you want back.  Can't you see
you do not know what lies inside and how I flow.
All this time and all this pain needless it was
and no one gained.

Yes I said things I did wrong so
I pour out my heart to you..Sorry is a simple
word but the truth has volume you have not heard.
What choice was there to wisper to the air yet
caution grew of what used to be.

So quick to judge and I know why, space is
far but equal emotions lie.  Maybe something
new to ponder why people of like senses
we therein quander.  If we were opposite you would
not try cause in my reflection your true vision lies.

Hate I think not anger maybe but think some
more when no other means of expression
presents itself anger flies.  Does not matter if you
agree,  cause two are one wait and see
if nothing else comes out of this I know
for sure without no doubt unlike you I
figured it out.

Too many times too many instances
thoughts race ahead emotions rise
anger hate love anxiety all live inside.
I have fought my whole life long so I
ask you now what war are you on
this moment now.

God is great and I am difficult yet
but he knows above all others
where my truth lives.  So as you
think what correlation can there be
look in your mirror and you will see me!!!

What else is there sorry forgive what can
I do?  Time has moved on for both me and you.
Do you think I forgot the good; do you think
I don't know the heart of you? Just as I am
sensitive and all  you are no different beneath it all.

For as all truth prevails,  from this day forward
all I have to do is look at me and I will see you!!
Suddenly and all stupidity aside I now realize
you can never hide.  Why you ask it is not
true for inside of both so much alike yes here
we are me and you.

Having crossed every boundary and berth
I wish to God I could give back my weight in worth.
So many things so many times yet everyday
my mind wanders questions events and
I would give my life to change its course.

As we all know time is not ours to spend
our one true God tells us when it all ends.
Guess I am saying all thats its worth and
what I have pieced together, if one could
switch for another no question I have my life for
hers...