I need a demon hunter

there's an essence of time
terrifying me like
an endless battle of regret.

If you are taught to see
yet do not see it at the time

how do you justify even being taught?
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they say what doesnt kill you
only in the end can make you stronger.

they never say how long it will take you
to become stronger.

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i silently choked inside myself
hiding tears that i felt were only
wanting to come down in vain.

if what they say is true
how can i even look towards this future
when i see the nightmare
rearing its ugly head right towards me?

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so he likes movies...
i dont care...
my complaint is that i dont need the paranoia
of what the movie is about...
what the plot is...
i dont want to dream it
i dont want to think it.

so i might be crazy...
i think we all feel this way sometime or another...

and for this nightmare...
to just come crashing in...
my mind.

i dont want to be your pawn...
and let it eat me alive.

i've bled enough for your fucking art.

and even if i fall cry shout
fuck it up...

im gonna stand tall when i tell you....

this isnt a fucking movie asshole...
its my fucking life.

and i've had enough.

go find another stupid girl to treat heartlessly
and un-compassionately.

because.

if death is coming
i dont want you near me.


shatter me....but what am i?

your broken masterpiece.