She

She never sleeps on an arguement, Nor does she rest.
She never feels pain until late and hides it at her best,
She likes to feel comfort when needed but affection feels like crime,
She likes to keep love in a distance, For the love she had was once declined.
She wakes up every hour subconciously the pattern has become routine,
She keeps strong by thinking he will return, Pretending heartbreak was a dream.
She never felt this way about anyone or anything and when he left he was gone for good,
She would give up her own life for him and take all the pain back just to have him if she could,
She cant understand why she doesnt hate him,She'd die to be with him again,
She wishes he still loved her now and never let him go the way she did back then,
She carries regret for letting him go and not fixing the leak in his heart,
She knows he wouldve been lying next to her at night and they wouldve never been apart.
She knows she can change the future yet all she wants is him and deep down knows its true..
Being this She that I am I wish you still loved me the way I still Love you.