Old Friend

Hope was once a kinder friend
Once upon a dream I think
But she led us to trust a lie
AWOL she left us on the brink

Perhaps our vision was just blinded
A device she used most often
Her deep blue eyes though deceiving
Allowed our hearts to soften

But once she’d taken all she wished
She left without a word
And never can I explain to you
The pain of that sharp sword

Destruction rises, but we laugh
What else but death can harm us?
Are only companion left our heart
She the only one who knew us

Hope broke all windows; all escapes
We’ll never leave this place of dread
We’ll never have the joys of ignorance
Until of course we’re dead.

Broken glass along the road;
Shards of mirrored lies
Images once held eternal
Shattered on the ground now lays

Murder my soul or murder my body
What difference does it make?
If all you dream are nightmares
What life do you create?

Hope abandoned us who loved her
And trusted are very hearts
And without our twisted friend
We cant hope any healing will start

Summer passes; and despair heightens
Life becomes a chore
But by and by, with Novecember
I count survival a failure nevermore

My mind is numbest now, no pain
Can cross the threshold high
But one day I turn around
And Happiness stares me in the eye

It’s not the kind that I possess
I wouldn’t be so naïve
But in the form of a green eyed friend
Whose infuriating smile makes me

And so I try to forget about hope
And focus only on Happiness
It’s easy to do, ‘cause when he talks to you
You feel an odd completeness.

But often when I’m alone
I wonder at these things
And wonder if Happiness will leave
But so far, it’s only spring

Summer comes I breath relief
Im finally over Hope
And with Happiness I’ve found
That’s all I need to cope

I’d die inside, if Happiness should die
Well I’ve said that before.
His eyes of green beckon me,
To trust in him forevermore

I refuse to cry, to trust to pray
Those emotions that deceive
But slowly he becomes what he wanted
A trusted friend believed

But the summer heat, seems to thwart me
Because Happiness starts to leave
And in despair I retreat
To ponder and to grieve

He isn’t gone completely,
But the signs I can see
This pain isn’t worth the best of feelings
But I forgot to remind me

It’s not even a moment before I look
And a new character stands before me
He says his name is Acceptance
But I doubt friends we could ever be

For I’ve decided not again
To trust in Hope Love or Life
Or any form or cousin of
For the pain after cuts as a knife

Not knowing where I’ve turned wrong;
How dare I start on forward?
We cant see out of these dark walls
When all the glass is broken backward

His eyes are different
Kinder, sweeter
They almost make me wonder
If he might be my redeemer

What’s the difference in blue, green or orange?
Aren’t they all deceivers?
How can I hope he isn’t Hope?
When in hope I’m no believer?

How can I know he isn’t fading?
Like the Happiness I had?
How can I know the pain wont return?
When in the past it always has?