My Past Repeats

I feel so distant mama.
I feel so far away.


It feels as if am just a spectator here.
Like no one can see me adn no one can hear.
I look on as nobody has ever done.
I watch people get picked on one by one.
I see a girl and I see a boy.
The look on his face is just pure joy.
She looks terrified and she is afraid to tell.
He tries to get her to stay quiet, he says that all will be well.

As time went on she spoke out.
Now she always feels so left out.
People act like she has a disease.
Her decision, her life she will cease.
She thought better of it, but now she is all alone.
She is here with me now, but I am on my own.
I watch as people tear others down.
I can not take it anymore I fall to the ground.


I feel so distant mama.
I feel so far away.