Dead < Alive

I'm being raised in death.
Dead money.
Dead honesty.
Dead Love.
Non feels. No one knows.
I've got him.. but I'm alone in this.
He tells me when he loves me which is all the time..
But there's only so much he can do.
Since the reason I feel ugly is 'cause you.
Your God-forsaken lies and broken promises, perfect parent in disguise.

I'm ashamed.
I'm embarrassed.
I'm in pain.
Don't waist your life.
Don't waist your time.
I me be your daughter, but I'll never be your friend.
If this is a family, than I'm Helen Keller
I've waited 18 years for things to get better.
Not everything is going to change.
I'm misunderstood. And it's a problem without a solution.
I'm vulnerable because I'm lied to.
I'm gullible because I wish just once I could trust and love one human being on this damn planet.
We should all be damned to hell.
Our lifestyles are flooding with fear.
I can't love because it'll just die. But if it's true, It's worth the fight.
You're lucky I'm smarted than you'll ever be.
I can love. I just have to do the opposite of you and mom.
Your fear will eat away at your soul and you'll surrender.
You'll look at the stars, remember my face and then you'll die.
At 16 I was smart enough to not give up and stick around to so you can watch me prove you wrong.,

If I don't, who will?
But you hate us, still...
We'll never meet your expectations because you ask for the impossible.
Which is one of the things we have in common.
I just want you to be my father. Instead, you're an enemy.
Like you, I guess that's asking too much.
When I grow up, I'll think twice about being like you.
We wanna be success
We all wanna be loved and love.
We wanna be as happy as we can be.
....and let that be a lesson to you.

You're a disease.
But I'm free.