Codine Galaxy

A void feeling crawling through my skin.
as the codeine touches my lips.
My feet don't touch the ground
Sights I can never see
places I can never visit.
all become my home
till my body nods out.
and I wake up.
Please don't wake me up.

I can sail away for a short eternity.
walk through the clouds and fall into hospitality of my very own galaxy
light years away from my room.
with never taking a step out of my door frame.
Its a merry escape.
A place I wish I could call home.
For a little while I am lost in my mind.
Worlds I never conquered
dreams I never dreamed.
wishes I never thought of wishing
all come true.

a simple small abstract vacation
to places I wish I could go.
oh, the places I can go.
I am a Dr. Soos, fairy tale, fantasy, peter pan complexity
but it all makes so much sense to me
I am a god for just a moments notice
but that moment is all I need or could ever desire.
I create and alter my physical existence.
How I wish you could all witness.
just by closing my eyes.
I achieve happiness witch is for some a life long road or destination
I have sought out sanctuary in cloud nine
I can do the impossible
I now believe nothing is impossible
Just highly improbable, but that doesn't phase me
and trust me, I feel fine.

standing on a beach overlooking a floating city made of crystal and gold
as I feel the sand beneath my toes
and the summer breeze come over me
as i overlook the ocean
as calm and smooth as glass
reflecting the stars witch reflect my past
as bright and clear as a normal eye can see
for a short time I am free.
I can walk across the stratosphere and touch the clouds with my finger tips
I wish to never awake from my Codeine complexity I have created.

I am free, I am where I want to be for eternity.
comfortably numb, and alone.
with these holograms of beauty and bliss
I am awe struck falling into a timeless eternity
why cant this be reality
all so addicting and desiring
escaping pain imagining still life beauty
I am beauty, this is a simple escape.
oh, mercy me I am serenity.
I don't want to ever go back home.
I am lost in an observatory. overlooking all existence
Its such an astronomical adventure
I don't wish to find my way back home.
There is a lifetime of exploring in this universe I have created.
I wont go quietly, if I am disturbed from my peaceful atmospheric slumber
not for now, not for ever.
This is my heaven, this is my hell.
Because it only exists in my mind.
and upon this no longer blank piece of paper.
Can you see what I see?