Secrets

I…
I cant say anything
My fort is too strong
For you to knock it down
Thought there’s a door
For you to get trough
But, then you cant pass the labyrinth
That I made in those dark days

Ah.
But, it’s for your own good
My past too much like a black hole
They’re too dark
Even the lights can’t escape
And I fear that it’ll suck you in
Bring you to those damned memories
Those pitch black and hazy days

I just fear
If I show my deck of card
If I show who I really are
I’ll erase your smile
Dimming the light in your eyes
And slowly, you’ll leave me
Because you feel that you've change
Because you fear me and my past

I...
I want to make a new self
Free from those memories
With you in my mind
With glowing eyes
But, then again, could I?
Catch happiness? Escaping from my past?
Honey, could I?