disconnected

I can remember like it was yesterday, December 21 , 2012 , boy what a joke ! Talk of end of the world, end of the Mayan calendar, and it all was supposed to happen on one date, but nothing ever did, life as it were, kept going on , people were still going about there business, frantically searching for an inner - happiness but never fulfillment in a nihilistic world devoid and stripped of any real human emotion and spiraling downward in this endless vortex of which we now know as our destiny.

My name is Nic 75136 , I answer to this name now as my name as I did know has changed to a name given to me by this computer. It is just easier for all of us to remember and since none of us have any other way to identify ourselves this has seemed to be the best way possible. I have chosen to not give a date to this as I really do not think it is pertinent . I only would like for someone to read this and come to there own conclusions.

I can tell you one thing for sure , I never in my wild imagination did I figure on a life like this. As I sit here writing this , I am a prisoner in my own home , fear has taken over and paranoia is all that is left. I do have one comfort , this computer , it is my friend , but also my prison as there is no way of escape. All the information in the whole world at my fingertips and I never have to leave this spot. I
can travel to any part of the world, communicate with more than one person at a time, buy whatever I can afford, and most wonderful part of all, I never have to leave this spot, I never have to use my mind, as I
have this computer to do it for me. I feel power and control that no drug in this world can give me, what a rush, if only I could just feel like this computer and have no emotion, no soul , no love .

Days have now passed since I have even left my home, why would I ? I can order food and drink just by entering my username and password, it is very simple and very convenient. My job is simple, I answer questions online to people who want to know about the newest in modern technology and how I can help them . What more can a person want , what more can they need ?