Letting go

A ticking time bomb
My clock is winding down
When they look, I smile
Baring this secret in silence

I got the job and applied for school
I know there's not time
But I won't give up
They need to see I didn't quit

I snuggle my little ones
And hold him when he breaks
My rock has become soft
It's my turn to be strong

I am tired
It shows through the layers,
But I soldier on with head high
They need me so I fight

I clench my teeth and bite my tongue
Sometimes I want to scream
I'm only twenty-eight and I'm dying!
Nothing is fair

I shake it off and keep a joke waiting
Their laughter is like air
And I breathe deeply
So they'll remember smiles

I sort through my things
Decide who gets what
It all seems trivial now
As memories are all I can take

I let go of dreams
Make peace with my past
Say good bye to those I love
And hope I'm remembered well