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here it comes again like it ever really left that same old shadow reminding you of death but somehow its different than before i'm not running not hiding i am opening the door welcoming in a long lost friend that wants to see me end hello darkness how have you been its been a while but i was expecting you again have a seat and we can look back you can remind me when i was a little girl alone in a strange world hollow & broken we can talk of the old days In a cloudy Haze when i would cry the pain away rejected and mocked by all the kids my own age and how my mother and my father couldn't love me the right way and how the mirror became distorted and i would turn and look away yeah i remember you were there you never left me you were the only one around and you never forgot me yes i still feel the pain inside from years of grief still feel the sting and burning flesh from all those beatings when all the boys would taunt and tease then want kiss and touch on me I love you baby, i promise i wont leave there was no place that was ok to be love isn't real thats what i believed all the heartbreak that this world Gifted me Was more like a curse and i was caged no way to break free thought i was alone but looking back Darkness, you stood strong so please, come on in I welcome you now truer than a best friend i owe a lot to you now i know these past years of darkness and pain planted seeds we've sown i understand that without you I would have never grown all these lessons through the shit The hell of reliving all of it It's only made me into something in-destructive and when my daughter died you were there all the time forcing me to stare death in the eyes i reached out to take your hand and you led me through the land deaths valley and i couldnt stand so you crawled with me over every jagged edge pushing me to give in give my last breath always when i thought i'd reached the end you'd set fire to me and then I'd come out of the ashes Fresh and new again thats why i now consider you my dearest friend oh those were the days i didn't understand but now i do and today i saw the sun turning blue felt the cracking of my heart and i knew yes i knew to expect you so come on in my dearest friend And... i will let you have the lead as we take another beautiful dark journey through this painful land Please, go ahead take my hand and lets dance ==== thank you please check out my blog http://timehasnomeaning.xanga.com/ |