her worst nightmare

she gets home
walks into her room
music on, feelings gone
he comes in her room
yells words so hurtful
so bitter and evil
she hides the pain
not letting him see it hurts
she focus' on the music
looking away as a tear falls
her musical block protects her
few of his words burst in like bullets
worthless, stupid, lazy, whore, useless, disappointment, not good enough,
all she wants is his approval
him to love her for who she is
not want her to change
she wants him to see how hard he tries
she longs for his approval
the words ' I'm proud'
hes who she needs most
she needs his protection
the man who should love her most
breaks her every dream and hope
he hates her every being
she doesn't understand his anger and hate
she'll never be good enough
he'll always want her to change
would things ever get better
will the evil words ever stop
his words cut deeper than any blade ever could
the bitterness in his eyes makes her wounder
makes her think what could she do to make him proud
she longs for the love he gives her siblings
she longs for proudness, happiness
any emotion other than anger and hate
will things ever change
shes his biggest disappointment
and well that's her worst nightmare