Milligrams

Just a couple hundred mg
Then I’ll feel like myself again
It’s all in the ‘script, my friend
You’d know if you were there at all

Then just a couple hundred more
Wake up later on the bedroom floor
You’re out of your head again
Beginning to think I’m not my friend

My past mistakes
I know I cannot shake
But every smile you see on me is fake

In every photograph, they laugh, I cry
The worst part is I don’t even really know why
I really do love them, yes I do
One of those things, if they only knew

Seeing the doc again this week
Even though he’s not much to speak
“Continue your treatment as prescribed…
Contact us when you feel alive.”

Another co-payment in my name
1st player status in this game
Achievement unlocked:
“You Fail At Life”

Yesterday
Has burned out like a flame
That was burning in my brain
Now it’s too dark for even me to see