A poem of love and self-exploration. |
“I pray for you,” my dear one said, “And entreat the god to bless Your desires with fulfillment, And your life with happiness.” I thanked her for the gesture, For it was well and fully meant, Though my skeptic’s mind assured me That it was only sentiment. From the hollow sense of parting In which I laid aside the phone, Returning me to silence, And to these walls, alone Among the tiered and brooding books Upon their beetling shelves, It was easy to imagine God Indifferent to ourselves. Indeed, why should one occupied With such universal care, So far above this petty realm, Consent to yield or spare A moment’s truck to trifle With such weightless wraiths as we? (Though the beating heart within her breast Was all the world to me.) Now, as my thoughts were thus engaged, My vision chanced to fall Upon a withered flower bush Beside my garden wall. I remembered, in its season, How that fair and fragile bloom Brought color to my table-tops And fragrance to my room. And that now it looked so different From its early, verdant prime, Downtrodden by the tramp of days, The heedless boot of time. Here, it seemed, was just the case To prove Divinity remiss: If Solomon, in glory, Was not so richly robed as this Or any flower of the field That ever bloomed or grew, And wiled the day in rare array Its fleeting fullness through, Then how could we less splendrous forms To Heaven’s note aspire, Who are but stubble, tares, and chaff, Fit only for the fire? But was not this whole argument Of the brash, conceited kind That leads the haughty to a fall Through an arrogance of mind? For reasoned logic holds a charm Irrespective of its source, A siren’s song convincing men To almost any course. And so it had persuaded me To an ignorance of Spring, Which delivers, in its yearly march, To every living thing, The miracle of life reborn In burrow and in bower, And visits to the whole, wide earth Resurrection’s quick’ning power. Thus does the Lord provide alike Despite the doubts of fools, For the burdened in their labors And the tadpoles in their pools. Such is meet and well becoming One, to whom ‘tis said, Is known the need of every heart, And the hairs of every head. And when I pictured, ‘neath these leaden skies Of winter’s sullen set, My beloved’s high and distant home Where it was colder yet, I trusted God find no offense, But welcome, all the same, A humbly sent reminder In the spirit whence it came. So, with full and chastened heart, I sent aloft a plea That He would keep and hold her safe Who was so dear to me; And shield her with enfolding grace From life’s many, lurking harms, ‘Til He deliver her within the fence Of my open, grateful arms. |