Please Let Me Move On

My heart is heavy with sadness for a love once lost.
I have sold my heart and my sanity was the cost.
For two years now her thoughts have remained
Yet I still feel myself going insane.

Long since she has moved on and her heart is with another
The final seal was the ring upon her finger
She belongs to another, quite possibly a wife to a father
And all I am now is a silent bother.

I have tried to love again, but with always a false start.
For she has taken residence upon my heart.
Yet laid it to waste so no other could reside
And so I simply sit here and take the pain in strides.

I have run out of hope and anger together.
I simply regret the fact that we ever said forever.

I can only think that this is God's cruelty at work.
How else could I explain this single nagging hurt?
A million times, a thousand, I asked it be removed; for what is there to gain?
Yet I am only met with silence, despair, and more pain.

I once prayed for her return, but now she is gone.
I have experienced my regret so please let it be done.
I thought, I swore that she was the one.
I admit that I was wrong God so please....just let me move on.

So many times I have asked and spent wishing.
Are you even up there? Are you even listening?
Was there a lesson in all of this? Was there some secret cover?
I simply wanted my best friend to be my lover.

I know I have gambled God and I know that I lost the bet.
But now she is my neighbor's wife and a woman I no longer wish to covet