Hardcopy Style

Just for the record,
i think,
i should put this all down &
pile this all up,
on paper, ya know?
~hardcopy style

It seems i have been,
& often am these days,
afloat with sails at full mast,
rudder broken & a storm
upon the horizon.

So i shall choose to ride the wind
surrendering my illusions of control.
Shift the context & you,
in turn, change the meaning.

Choosing a different motivation
& choosing how you respond
gives you power
within the situation.

Though there are times
when our emotions or thoughts
are, in themselves,
beyond our control.

Still . . .
we have power
to continue the process
of trying to better understand,
accept & manage ourselves.

Which is why & where we come
to my point of mentioning, that is.

I have realized,
the person i have become
has never been the person
i will be every time you read this.

I don't know if even i would          recognize
me today if i saw me yesterday and
i doubt even more my ability to
recognize me tomorrow.

I am shifting my context,
changing my meaning
choosing a different motivation,
& finding my power.

I will continue in my process
trying to better understand,
accept, & manage myself.

No longer shall i justify
myself or my actions.
I will not apologize
for them,
for this,
for any of it.

This is presented in
hardcopy style.
so you will have something tangible
to reflect upon when the times' come.

I have found they come along,
the times', that is
quite frequently
as of late.

There too, anywhere,
anyway,
or anywise,
shall be just how you choose it.

Just for the record
Hardcopy Style

1/29/05