A feeling i never got over & never knew

A feeling i never got over and never knew what it was

We all grew up listening to stories which we loved and wished to be part of.All had a happy ending with a famous hero-heroine meeting and of course a villain without whom the story wouldn't have moved ;)
I am writing a story with no famous characters but simple incident which made me feel something that I never felt before.
I happened to meet a handsome guy who I can say right out of novel, handsome, had naughty smile and with twinkle in his eyes. I meet him in the holy month of year 2009, least expected though, in the bus. When I first looked at him he was busy looking somewhere. There was this feeling which instantly attracted me to him. A feeling I never realized what it was. Though I didn't know his name or anything, inside of me just wished he would come tomorrow too.just for me to keep looking at him.sad part comes when all guys smart and handsome never turns up or they wouldn't be interested. So I just waited for next morning. Sadly he didn't turn up as expected. Inside me never wanted to believe.As evening came I was in rush in reaching bus as I was already late when I saw the same face,smiling and talking to his friends.i was so happy. No words to describe the moment.oh well I didn't say about his friends. There were two, one guy and one gal, obviously the gal getting turned into villain of story. Its just human nature but lately I realized she was never the villain but some sweet lady in the company of him.he sat with his friends in the front few seats of bus whereas me from childhood likes to sit behind.A place you can watch people and I just love that.well I sat in rightmost end of two seater behind and he in diagonal seat opposite to my seat, leftmost end of 3 seater. there was no way I could see him.by the time my stop reached I was just praying to see him once before the day is over.i was so lost in my dream that I didn't realize he just turned back to look at someone.that moment I wished I could have daily and mind unknowingly happened to pray for him to be back tomorrow.
Next day as usual he was in front seat sleeping and alone in 2 seater. bus was crowded and alas I was confused where to sit.suddenly I see he got up his sleep and took his bag kept in seat next to him.me in confusion state and I been a fool of not taking the seat just went forward looking for place.just the thought that what people would think which includes him too and to my bad luck from next stop one female gets in just to sit next to him.this made my day worst for me as I missed a golden opportunity.I was angry upon myself for missing it.as the saying goes time has not come or fate really didn't want to meet.
Days just continued this way not talking and meeting him,but enjoying the pleasure of the moment.I never knew what feeling it was.as routine,been front seated people he used to get down very fast and keep walking with his friends and not a single incidence of back glance even once.but one fine day as I remember he just waited in bus for all to get down which includes me too as me in back seat as usual late to get down.again I was lost in thoughts of him when suddenly he turns to look back.i stood there shocked and somebody had to wake me up to move forward.I guess that was on purpose of getting down late from bus and walking slowly with his friend.finally I too got down and happened to walk fast,like every morning,reached side by side to him.i was looking straight and as you know its human nature not to show that I was interested in you or something but he didn't bothered all that and looked at me.though I could see him glancing at me through the tip of eye I acted as though I didn't see and not interested and walked away even more fast. didn't no for what.he and his friend had to walk faster to catch me with but slowly they lost track.that day I had turned into marathon runner than a simple walker.
Later days came when I couldn't see him at all.I cursed the good moments I missed to be just with him.I cursed myself and my fate.days went by and I slowly believed I would not see more of him and should just move on.then one fine day he comes right front of me busy talking to group of people.i was lost like any other time in his smile.but something jerked me from this dream to realize that he was looking right into my eyes and he just walked by.i was on cloud nine but i didn't feel to take it any serious.i had always look forwarded to see his smile a day which I didn't no for what feeling in me invoked it.
Then days were such a way that both would look into each other eyes and then as usual would get busy with work for the day.never bothered to talk to each other.just wishing to glance once each day,to make moment of the day,memory to just treasure in one’s mind. I never understood what this feeling was all about and why it happened in me. I just wish is I have this beautiful moment in every other day of mine…

I till now don’t know his name place what he does but all I can remember is his smile which I would miss forever…