The reason for breking up

A final decision is always hard, for both parties equally. The one who makes it is forever haunted by the road not taken, the one who accepts it is hurt by the disregards of the other. And that brings me to us, and our end. It is the end, we can not lie pass that. You knew it from the moment I stooped calling and sleeping at your place. I knew it since our first date. Its my fault really that it dragged on for so long, but don’t blame a guy for being inconclusive. You where a good fuck, and sadly nothing more. And you are too blame for it. Yes you are.

Women are to be conquered and seduced, its the mystery about them that makes them so special, and worth the time. I know times have influenced our morals a lot. But still is us who chose those morals, and not the times we live in. And you chose yours. Right for you, wrong for me. 

From the beginning you where a easy chick, and don’t deny it. I mean you where 19 when we meet and u already had slept with 13 different guys. And the majority of them came in your mouth. I mean you had the freedom to do so, I am sure as hell it felt great at the time. You had your fun.

But it was different for me, you giving you self so easily for guys to fuck, made it impossible for me to feel any kind of pride having you as my girlfriend. Because so many before me had you in so many different ways that there was nothing left for me to fell special about. You are damn sure of your way, you are even proud of it. And do so, you have the full right. But don’t expect others to look at it from your perspective. No guy, after hearing and knowing all those things will think to himself,

“ what a lovely lady, she just wanted to explore and develop her sexuality, she made wise decisions about whom to have inside her, and what to swallow from them”

Reality doesn’t go that way, it really doesn’t. Here is a prime example, Artan told me you are the kind of girl that suck the dick whit this chocking sound, and Stefan confirmed that when he fucked you in the head on you working table. That is how guys think, and I am one of them. Maybe a little worse that the rest but still the set up is pretty much the same for me as for the rest. And that’s why I never could have loved you, at least not in the way I always imagined myself loving a girl. Unconditionally, thoughtless, respectful and full of pride. You sure are good in your ways. And that’s the thing that makes me so sad about us. I fell if you had been a little different in your past, if you had a little more decency and restraint we could have been the happiest couple in the world. But the past can not be changed, the only thing we can look for are better days. They will come, because all things pass, and faster than most others the ones born out of misfortune. I wish you the best, as best ca go.