A personal poem about finding a way even when there really should not be one. |
-The Nothing I’ve Become- by Keaton Foster This soul Deep does it go Way down inside To the core Far from any surface The light never comes Only darkness finds a home Saturated skin and bones A diseased form of a disease There is no known cure There never was meant to be The nothing I’ve become Cannot be undone Something will never fill The emptiness of the space In which I find my way For every one of my days I have managed to live like this I was born of sin And given over to flesh The horrific abuse of my youth Is continually happening There is no forgetting something Damn near impossible They did what they did Without question Without regard for the likes of me And what it would come to mean I am alive, living, breathing But really that is it I have no capable emotion I do not understand the needs of others Empathy is something not missed Because it is something never once had I am as cold as the nothing found The nothing I’ve become I survive because I must Purpose alone is what I believe in How else could what have happened Ever truly be explained God above sacrifices many of lambs In order to keep his flock in check He doesn’t hate us he sacrifices In fact I’d say without reserve That he loves us most of all The teacher always needs a student Examples must be made So that others know If you ask me while I’m alive I’d certainly say one thing If you ask me when I’m dead I no doubt would say something else Such replies, both living and death Will of course have to wait Suitable answers always take time Wisdom is a lifetime affair The nothing I’ve become Is just what I must deal with And egotistically I must say That I’d like to think that I A man of very few resources Have done quite well where others Not as strong might have failed Finding any kind of a way In such a terrifying wilderness Is always better than standing still Learning coexistence with such An at times over powering disease Is really the only thing that I have The nothing I’ve become is something Because I fight to make it as much…. The Nothing I’ve Become Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2013 |