Despair is...

When you have no answers to all of the questions,
And they pile up on top of each other,
And you can't see a way through them...
And you can't hide from them.

When your lungs can't take in enough air,
And you wonder if they have holes in them,
And each breath feels like a knife...
And you have to keep breathing.

When your heart falls to pieces,
And they fall away one at a time,
And you feel them torn from their place...
And it keeps beating anyway.

When you can't take it anymore,
And everything is pain,
And everyone is clueless...
And you have to pretend you're okay.

When your smile falters,
And you can't fake it anymore,
And your tears start falling...
And you just

Break

down.