That lost feeling

                                                                Losing someone who truly means something to you.



                Do you know that feeling? The grief? That lost feeling that no matter what you do, you can’t replace it. Everyone has that feeling when they lose something important, or special to them. And most of the time, you can never replace it. Even if it is an object, you will never have the same one again. When you do overcome the feeling of having a lost feeling, you will still have grief, especially if you had a close bond with that person. Grief is the worst feeling to have. You can come apart because all you want to think is ‘It’s my fault that they are gone.’



         “You always know what you have; you just never think you’d lose it.” –Unknown. Even if the feeling you once had went away, it will somehow come back. You would feel more lost than ever. You would start thinking of things you and that person, that you lost, used to do. Others would start seeing it and ask about it, but you tell them ‘I’m fine’, and they believe you.



         The feeling of grief is always there, deep down. You can never get rid of it. It sticks in there and haunts you and waits for the day where you will break. Break. There is always a day where everyone just breaks. They get sick and tired of the grief and the constant lost feeling. They just want it to end and end up doing something horrible. But, not everyone does break. Somehow, those who don’t break stay strong. And always get their mind off by doing something they love, such as going somewhere that they love so much.



         “I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off and on. Replaying pieces of our conversation, laughing at funny things that you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together, and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. And I love you.” -Unknown