with the end...comes pain...

when I was alone...your voice brought me comfort...although I could not reach out to you with my arms...
to hold you...to thank you...inside my mind...I could still feel you beside me...guiding me into a better place...
it felt like I had been waiting for you all of my life...to tell me everything was ok...that I was ok...that even with
all of my failures and dissapointments...I was still worthy of love...and that love grew...I cherished every word...
every sentence...I waited to be noticed...all I ever really wanted was to hear you speak directly to me...and hold
me so tight...even if it was only words...even if it wasn't really real...I never felt such comfort in my life.........

I am sorry if I became so deeply in need of you...with all of my baggage I carried...I never stopped to see that you
were also holding your own bags...and i'm sorry I didn't see that until now...I fear I have now lost you...and I can't
get you back...my heart is hurting...but I will not cause you anymore grief...but I just wanted to tell you one last time....
your words...your mind...your heart...your imagination...your kindness....it saved me from myself...

I never knew anyone like you before...and I never will...