The Girl I Used To Be

"The Girl I used To Be"

Echoes in the Silence
of a Life that used to be,
Quietly remind me of a soul
that once was wild and free.

Responsibilities weigh heavily
upon on my weary mind,
as my heart stretches and yearns
for a simpler place in time.

Back when I was audacious, carefree,
and brave.
I Used To Be so Fearless.
How I long for those days!

I flung myself headlong
into an abyss that was unknown.
But now I just sit and wonder
safely tucked within my home.

Gazing out the windows
as the world keeps passing by.
Slowly my spirit is dying
and all I can do is sigh.

Deep within my shattered soul
a beast paces it's cage.
White hot with sound and fury
at each turning of the page

Flames of regret stoke the fires
that still smolder within my heart.
Looking for a place to make a stand,
With no clue where to start.

Something has got to give.
Something has got to break.
Or else Compassion will morph into Revenge.
Love will melt into Hate.

Molten steel runs through my veins
my spine is strong and true.
My mind keeps whispering "The time's long past
to show the world the real you."

I am a woman that feels, and hurts,
and bleeds, and cries.
I have had my share of heartaches,
waded through my share of lies.

I have had my share of lovers,
and shed my share of tears,
I have walked with my head held high
through the Valley of my fears.

The time has come for me to find
the girl I used to be.
Starting over, with enough faith and determination
to chase down Life's mysteries.


Stepping out along the path,
searching deep within,
I've finally found the courage
to simple just begin

To be the best that I can be.
To hold my head up proud.
To stop apologizing
for standing out among the crowd.

To stop agonizing over
what I let others see,
and simply begin to go in search
of the girl I used to be.

Kimberly D. Huggins
12-14-2011
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