Scared Of Love

Scared to Love
I'm feeling things for someone new
Things I've felt before.
Feelings that make me foolish when
They come knocking at my door.

I've been broken hearted
I've been hurt and scarred.
I have felt the agony
Of jokes taken way too far.

I have been the target of
Too many games and lies.
They all leave me unstable with
Hurt feelings and broken pride.

The scars of love gone wrong
Have taught me painful things:
Never trust a pretty face;
It's not worth all the hurt it brings.

When I feel these things again,
It comes without a warning.
I just force them away from my mind
It's usually gone by morning.

But with him it's so much different.
I'm falling for him fast.
I can't help the way I'm thinking
I don't know how long this'll last.

I'm feeling mortally wounded
I'm feeling so terribly weak.
I can feel my armor shedding
I'm in way too deep.

I don't know what to do.
I can't be hurt again.
I can't feel the devastation
As I had way back then.

But I don't want this to end.
It gives me so much joy.
But it hurts me to know I've fallen harder
Than I have for any other boy.

I'm tearing down my walls,
I'm giving up my fight.
I'm not going to push away this one;
I'm making this wrong be right.

I feel myself not caring
If he does break my heart.
He'll be tattooed there forever
In every broken part.