Dreamscapes

I will start a series of articles about dreams, based on what I dream on a daily basis. I will speak out of my own life circumstance and we will see where it goes from there.

I had a long series of dreams that spurred on the effort.

One dream sequence saw my daughter as a young girl headed for a European trip. I feel concerned about the fear she might feel as a young person entering the plane. I find myself considering that my wife (presently ex) might lead to a connection as a parent helper. As it turns out she does not go. I am left wondering what happened after the trip.

Another dream sequence saw me in my church looking for people to populate the church. I recalled going to old neighborhoods that were familiar. I recall my connection with a family of pig farmers (The Reifs) and the Havelkas, which housed someone who had always went to church. After searching diligently for a connection I come upon a woman and her girls. I can recall their names vaguely. One of the names is Nod. I am hopeful about their attendance and recall (from another dream sequence) how a woman had turned the church into a mega church entertainment place. I am left wondering what to do.

The word connection is common. My daughter is now in college and I worry about where she is going and how I am able to be supportive as she get ready to try out her skills as doctoral chemistry student in other places. What do I have to offer that her mother does not? I left Julie when she was only twelve. What happened since I was gone. How do I catch up, (a plane might not be fast enough!)


The other dream has to do with my pastoral aspirations. I try to glean from what I have learned in the past. The Reifs were a bunch of pig farmers I got to know. There was a stench that kept me from being connected to the church. I was not treated fairly and after a year and a half the churches were in an uproar about the church (my first) letting me go so easily.

The dream about the woman with the mega church is represented by my ex who is currently studying to be a pastor. She blames me for the failure, which meant she took credit for all the successes and has tried to get it started back up. I am more about evangelizing and she is more about entertaining the thought she can bring people closer to a skill set that will help them survive.

The Havelkas, represent my hope. Anna was in the church about every time the doors were open, at times the only one at bible study. I hope to find a person as faithful, preferably a younger person. I still wonder how much is influence and how much is the need for me to assert my need to be pastor over an above making an impact. There a lot of threads that jump at me. One is the new journey of a caregiver connector who faces charges from SRS. She and I have been together pastorally several times a week. What can I do that will make a difference or should I stay out of her trauma?