I make my own Future...

"I have always wondered,what was the real meaning of my life...and in what way,would that eternal question influence my behaviour in every single aspect of my odd existence..."

My routine,doesn´t change very often,in fact,it´s basically boring...well,now and then,i do get some surprises,but i wouldn´t consider them relevant to even mention...although my everyday seems the same,over and over...i couldn´t help but think,that something unique would happen soon enough,and it would change my prespective on all this shit...

Last night,as i vegetated lied on my bed (typical event...) something unexpected occured...someone (an actual person,not my imaginary friends...) knocked on my door...i got up (must have taken,at least two or three grueling minutes...) and opened the rusty (lack of use) door...

The fellow was impeccable (based on my limited standars...) but there was something very familiar about him...the son of a bitch looked like my twin...but a better version of me,much better.He talked with a superior accent,and condescendingly said :

"What the fuck are you still doing in bed,you idiot..."(i guess condescendingly is definitely the wrong word to use..)
"Are you aware that your actions are screwing me?Let me rephrase that,your inactions"

I was a bit groggy ,because this very handsome idiot,just rushed me out of bed at this late hour,and the only thing coming out of his mouth,were insults...how dare he...

"Listen my friend,i am really confused here...do i owe you money,or pissed you off for some other reason...better yet,do i even know you?do you even know what time it is?"

My response was firm and effective...at least i thought it was,untill i felt his monster of a fist,almost breaking my fragil nose...

"it´s nine o´clock in the evening you moron,and no,you don´t owe me money,but you do know me..."
" I am you...in a couple of years...not sure how that´s possible,since you are pathetic...but that is the thruth"

I could only think of one thing to say,i couldn´t help myself...

"so...you almost broke you own nose...and i am the pathetic one...give me a break" (and i started laughing)

I can still feel his right boot hitting my back...

"That´s right you idiot,but could we please focus..."

He had my complete attention now...

"I just came here to tell you one thing...get up and do something,it doesn´t matter what it is...just do something...if you do that,this is what you will become,not a fucking looser wasting his life feeling sorry for being alive...i am warning you,if you get back on that bed as soon as i leave,i will be right back..."

And after saying those exact words,he turned his back to me and left...So i closed the door,and...went straight to bed...suddently i heard another knock on the door...


Sérgio Nunes
16/02/2015