Numb

Caught in a web of self inflicted misery
At the mercy of my heart and the will of my own mind
A constant tug of war of emotions
Ripped apart by self doubt and a longing that never subsides
Unsure of where this mess came from, or the path I took to find myself here

A title wave of emotion flooded my mind
Now I am stuck, treading water and wondering why I am still fighting for air
Sickness rolls in, standing on a quaking ground
Almost wishing misery will finally consume me

Drowning in my own induced sorrow
Another glass to swallow the emptiness that has me hostage
I pray for the nothingness to over power me
A sip for pleasure, a bottle for pain, both yours and mine

Oh there it is, the numbness
Perhaps now I will sleep..