I Hate the Entirety

I hate the fact that you are the beautiful angel ever fallen on earth
I hate the feeling that you are the best girl I ever met
I hate my mind for telling me to care about you everyday

I hate something called "creation of the world the way it is" for
stately lucidly that you would never care like that about me

I hate my heart for falling in love with you

I hate myself so much that I want to run back time,
stop the moment that I fell in love with you,
even stop the moment that I saw you for the first time and
If possible, look away at the time when we made our first eye contact

I hate the way you blink your eyes,
the smile that stretches your lips till your ears,
the lovely moment when you adjust your glasses,
the astounding curve of your ear,
the way your teeth twinkle,
the style you listen to the lectures in the class, and
the fact that I miss you every time I think of these.


I hate the possibility that god created you with the same interests as mine
I hate the world where I can't watch some of my favorite movies
because they remind you through every frame
I hate the realm where I can't listen to the music I like
because every string of the instrument strikes me like your tone
and each and every line describes you about the feelings I could never express.

I hate the truth that you are never gonna feel the same way I do.
I hate the feeling that I can never put my feelings into words as I am doing now
I hate the sight that things are never going to be the same again
I hate the moment when I said "I love you"
I hate myself for saying the magical words, as people say
I hate my luck for making me join the list,
the list of people who couldn't hear the real magical words "I love you too"

I completely hate the notation that "Boys always fall for the wrong girl at first because,
somewhere in the world, the right girl is praying that her
future husband learns all his lessons before he marries her."
I hate you because you changed me in ways that no book could ever transform me and
no teacher could have ever taught me.
I hate you because you don't belong to me anymore
I hate you because I have to live and lead my life with this guilt till last breath
I hate you because you didn't even try to see me like the way I did.