A deep agony of love ..... |
Don't laugh at me Stop it! Stop it, I said. Don't laugh at me anymore I am not an infant who laid in your arms I'm not a teenaged boy who looked at you Remember, I am not your servant Who has made a silly mistake? Oh! You are asking me why I built your sculpture. Yes, that was my fault I wanted to see your smile always But the artist has created a mocking face instead of a smile. I told him to focus on the face But he focused on the body Because I described you were outstandingly beautiful Now people look at you for your lustful body But I could not see your smile. Silent! Silent please You are telling me why I let you go! Yes, yes I did Because I gave you freedom I gave you power I gave my imagination I gave you my thought also And you utilized it very softly That's why you flew away by your scheduled time And when I saw you in the sky Alas! I was undone It was totally out of my range As you were far away from me You had not seen me and not even my tears. I realized that day A guest bird never looks behind Believe me, my heart was so vast as a sky But my sky was a poor place for your roaming You were as calm as the Pacific Ocean But I forgot the Mariana Trench. I know you wouldn't get back And wouldn't know how much money I have now I received many gifts from you And your betrayal was the best one In vain, I could not hold it any longer So I wanted to keep your smile. Once I ran after you for love But today not only human but also the faithful dog run after me Because people obey money And the dogs obey the people who have money. Please don't laugh at me Please don't let me cry There is no water in my eyes except blood I can't break your sculpture I can't beat your face You were my only love and you will be. Stop it please! Please! Your laughter gives me pain What! Do you like to do it? Ha ha ha............... Darling, I am habituated to consume suffering So it feels me bored without untold suffering. Do you know? Smiling is a way to win a heart Mocking is a way to break a heart Please don't laugh at me Please don't let me cry. You laugh at me and I break down gradually Like the sun in the dusk Like the moon in the day Like an ocean without wave Like a tiger without nails and teeth Like a bird without wings After all, people consider me as a hero! Listen. Please listen carefully I'm not your type In where no emotion is alive. Please! Please don't laugh at me I don't want to die without pity and fear. By Wasi |