Addicted and Lifted

Back when times were tough, and was doctored up, I should have made positivity my business. Instead of not acting right, should have stopped the foolishness, stopped the fighting, and started too look around be gracious. My nature became missing holidays and birthdays. You just cannot have life both ways because either your broke and miserable or happy and paid. It was time to shed his negativity, and put on smile. There were too many nights in cells and days chased by trials. Life has passed by too quickly, and finally chose to spend it laughing and joking then laying around sickly. Not telling anyone how it is now, but once you give so much away to nothing taking on the heart of a champion really starts to seem like something. Realizing how life starts to pick and choose, I stare at those who were there for me, and I know I can’t ever lose. This is not just some message to try to tell anyone how to run their life. I just want to get out word life goes on in a simpler way, each an everyday, so always know where you come from and who you are..
It’s not a secret back when I took on the persona of a villain, all of the people I cared for faded away, and achievements looked higher than the ceiling. Life is what you make of it, either it can be great or one big mess. Living life the right way just doesn’t seem to come as natural when you’re growing up. As you get older the curtain seem to start to close, and you’re starting to want to be more appreciated, than being faded. Loyalty can become a factor, and lies take form you become a great actor. Partying every weekend because I wasn’t popular. I just couldn’t ignore them, all the pressures, I fell for it. Living pay check to pay check made things dicey, and humiliation started to take form as things got pricey. My mug shot on the news did not help, it just made me want more of the high life. I no longer care what they say, and it is always family first now. I no longer am out to just get mine, and even if life gets harder I know everything will be just fine because putting partying to bed means I made it. Like a great psychological film, life has become fascinating.

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