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I have finally left an abusive relationship, yet part of me seems to have disappeared. |
They do not hide in the shadows, They do not just seek out the innocence of children. They do not just disappear as daytime arrives, They do not just exist in a child’s imagination. They walk amongst us they will fool even the most intelligent. They will change you forever destroying you. I am living proof that monsters are real. I fell in love with someone with fair hair, blue eyes like mine. He came from a good home, had lifetime long friends. He had a heart that was so black, I am crippled now Forever weakened from the past. From him. He fooled me. I believed in him. I loved him, and I hid the pain he caused me for years. I protected him. I let my innocence go and watched my life crumble. I watched and I cried and I fought, as he destroyed all my hopes and dreams, all my beliefs in the world. Everything I had ever wanted for my children. I hid broken bones, made myself seem clumsy and stupid. All to ensure no one thought badly of him. I had black eyes, and broken hearts, I had years and years of nights I spent sobbing and begging for him to be there for me. To love me. I had everything, and he destroyed it all. I always believed his lies. He is a monster. He is the reason I am a shell of who I once was. I am broken, no where near the person I once was. I am looked down on now. I have lost everything. And he continues to haunt my daily life. I finally left him,. I finally chose to save myself. He chose to call and lie, have my children taken from me. All because he says, if he cant have them or me. Then I wont have them. He lied and lied again. He plays the victim, and I am looked at like I am an evil villain I am the one who protected and played that he was an angel so well. That no one believes his true identity Monsters, They do exist, Their clothes sit beside yours in your closet, they do not hide there. You cuddle them in the bed, They do not have to hide under it. Monsters, They slowly take what you are and destroy it. They steal your light They hide your smile They take your spark from your eyes and you lose it forever They take a good heart, and cripple it They disable you They leave you a shell of the amazing person you once were I am whats left of a monsters attack. I am what’s left of a bright and colourful soul I am the girl who had the smile that brightened a room. I am the girl who had the heart of gold I am the smart girl. I am the caring girl. I am the one who loved a monster. And lost everything good about myself. I am here half alive, nothing of what I once was. To show you just what monsters are capable of . I am here to warn the good hearted girls, who have an innocence inside of them, to watch out, to be careful. I was once you, They seek us out. They will never quit. They will ruin you, like my monster did to me. If you still shine brightly, Watch out for their darkness. They hide it well |