Struggles

struggling my way through
my mind is muddled and my moods changeable
wondering what to do
I don't mean to snap at you
Its not what I mean to say
and don't want to push you away.
My mind can be irrational
please don't take it personal
I love you with all my heart
I can't snap out of it
once my illness starts.

My emotions are enhanced
I feel everything more than is normal
with triggers building up I don't always stand a chance
my thoughts and actions can be subliminal
with support and understanding
I can cope a little better
I realise I may be demanding
though its not consciously
every day I'm battling
the illness you can't see.

Please try to understand
I'm not bad
I can mostly control it
I can feel the polarity change
counteract it with my medication
before it turns the page
I'm human just like you
but my mind constantly changes its points of view
my mind is not black and white
but everything in between.
people think I'm being awkward
because my illness can't be seen.

Don't judge everyone
on first appearances
get to know that person
and what makes them tick
you may be able to support them
by just listening and showing you care
it can make a difference
just knowing you are there.