My Internal Struggle

There are two sides of me within,
An internal struggle out of control.

To know which will consume me,
Which one will be who I am.

The first one reaches out to me,
Wipes my tears away and tells me to be ok.

To do what is right, to do what is fair,
That life is a beautiful gift, not to be taken for granted.

One to pick me up off the ground,
Brush away the dirt and stains.

Embrace me with love,
Kindness above all else.

A sweet lullaby in my head,
A simple song to my mind.

It fills me with an everlasting calmness,
It fills me with glee.

Honesty, above all, it bestows upon me,
To know the truth is the only answer.

But the second one, reaches in
Slaps the other away, spits upon me.

It shoves me down, fills me with fear,
Crushes my hope away in a single blow.

Fills me with bitterness,
Tells me to give into my strife.

It pounds at my scarred heart,
Tearing apart my mind.

Through it my anger burns like fire,
My stability shattered.

Scornful in nature,
Isolation from others.

The blood drips down,
My fists clenched.

It's bittersweet lies creep into my ears,
To live the facade is all it pleases.

It takes all,
Madness consumes.

These two will forever fight within me,
I cannot cease the conflict.

Within, I shall never know peace,
My life at the mercy of these beasts.

The beasts will always fight,
But to one conclusion.

The one that will win,
Is the one I will feed.