Can't Control It

I keep trying to stop, to stop all my madness, but you just keep coming, coming with sadness!

I barely know you, and you barely I, but you are the beauty, in my beholder's eye!

I push and I shove, to relieve from my mind, but I just cannot leave you, leave you behind.

For you're the one I want, whom I long for in dreams, perfection in one form, folded, without seams.

And I picture you constantly, every waking moment, I want your love, but that means I must hold it.

And I hold to it, this love that I have, but you are my thought, I can't get you out, and love can't be bought.

I long for nothing, nothing but to tell you, but that'd bring you down here, and you'd be in hell, too.

I cannot take this anymore, this dreadful existence, not with this love, and it's powerful persistence.

If ever there was a drug, so strong as this, I'd take it's infliction, to rid this addiction.

I want to beg to you, thought you don't know, but my love stays deep down, buried in snow.

For if I told you, I'd ruin what I have, those few simple glimpses, they aren't so bad.

I wish I had much more, that is for certain, but still, I will go on, closing my curtain.

Just to see you smile, it is a gift from the stars, but this gift holds my joy, closing the bars.

It isn't your fault, how I think you are perfect, how I wish for your presence; anything is worth it.

I'd kill, I'd steal, I'd rob, I'd cheat! To be with you, stand against a naval fleet.

But you'll never know this! My eternal sorrow! How I just WISH I could tell you! Maybe tomorrow?

No, it won't be! My sadness drives this... my longing, drives me, longing for a kiss.

And it's taking it's toll, it's bursting the hangar, this withdrawal from you, filling me with anger!

I know you don't know, how could you know? I try not to give hints, to keep it below.

But I'm going insane, from this pain that you make, I look at myself, and see the reflection shake.

So every once in a while, our eyes will meet, nothing to you; my heart skips a beat.

And I'll say something interesting, simply for your voice, when it meets my ears, it feels, the best choice.

And you take it away! I know I'm not being fair.... But you cause my dismay! I wish we could share...

Share good times, and make a nice moment, for these I would cherish, and make any atonement.

But I'll keep it away, far away from your ears, far away from your eyes, hidden in your peers.

I want you to know, so I hope that they tell, but inside, I believe, my feelings will dwell.

But my hopes remain high, despite all I miss; my life will be complete, the moment we kiss.