I Used To

I used to love the rain
The coolness , the sound, the water
Now, it comes with the pain
The coldness and eyes that gets wetter.

I used to love the moon
In the dark, it is shining bright
Now, I'm afraid when it's coming soon
Because I know it's gonna be the night.

I used to love the night
When people rest and be true
But now it is like a fight
Trying not to remember you.

I used to smile a lot
With the simple things you do
Now, a smile is like a knot
Figuring out how to form it through.

I used to like being alone
While imagining being with you
I used to be with my phone
But now I'm crying when I do.

I used to love it when I sleep
I used to love my sweet dreams
But now, it's made for me to weep
While memories flashing are bad hymns.

I used to believe
I used to be true
I used to give
I used to love you.

Now, I'm afraid of the things I'm used to
I'm trapped inside these memories of you
I didn't used to think of letting you go
But to love you more, on a different flow.


Notes from the author
         Hi readers! Just for the information of everyone, I wrote this poem during those times that I am so drowned with my memories with someone I love, but I need to let him go after almost one year for some reasons. We used to love those things in the poem, but now, when I see them, I remember him, and it hurts a lot. Anyways, this is just for the background of the poem and I want to thank you for reading it :) I hope you like it!
-MsCaseyLuna