sex, drugs and love

Sex, Drugs and Love
Prologue
2:45 2016
Downtown Grand Las Vegas Hotel
I drink myself into total darkness. My head spins I feel numb all over. My senses dull and I blank the rest of the night out. When I wake up I'm lying next to a man. His face looks familiar but I don't know who he is. I don't think he's breathing. I look down at myself and I'm naked, covered in blood. I did it again, and I feel no shame, no pain, I feel nothing.

Chapter 1
13 years earlier
Midnight 2003
Hartford my house
My name is Evangeline Young I 'm ten, I live with my mommy Daisy Young and my father Sam Young. We live in Hartford in a small yellow house. My mommy doesn't let me go outside alone she says It's not safe. My father's gone right now me and mommy are lying in bed right now, mommy's sleeping but I can't fall asleep. I hear our front door open with a bang and slammed shut. I get out of bed and peak through my bedroom door. I see my father stumbling through the living room a beer in his hand. "Daisy! Where are you?" Mommy jerks up from my bed. She takes my arm and sits me down on my closet floor. "Be quiet baby, stay here until I come and get you." 'Okay mommy." "Just lie down and go to sleep." I lay down and mommy gives me a pillow and covers me with a blanket. She kisses my forehead and closes the closet door. "Daisy, where are you? Get the hell over here." "I'm coming." I sit up and look through the cracks on the closet door. Mommy's standing near my bed, my father swings the door open and slaps mommy across the face. Mommy falls down and starts to cry. "When I call you, you come the first time. Got it?" "Yes. Sam please calm down." My father grabs mommy by her hair. She screams and father yells at her. "Don't ever tell me what to do." He pulls mommy to her feet by her hair. He pushes her and mommy falls down again. Tears fall down her cheeks. Father hits mommy over and over again. I run out of the closet and hit father's legs. I hit him and scream at him. "Stop it your hurting mommy." He picks me up and I start to cry all over again. I'm scared that he'll hurt me too. He kisses my cheek and wipes my tears away. "This doesn't concern you." He carries me to his room and puts me on the bed. "Go to sleep my princess." He leaves and I hear the door lock behind him. I don't sleep because I hear mommy's screams and her asking father to stop, but he doesn't stop, he never stops.

Chapter 2
Present day
8:15
Las Vegas my apartment
I get out of bed my hair still in a bun, my makeup from last night a mess on my face. I look at myself in the mirror my beautiful silver eyes are bloodshot. I wash my face and take my hair out of the bun. Brown hair crashes against my face and drops to my butt. I brush it and decide its good enough for today. I remember bits and pieces of last night. I followed John Doe into a club he was with his girlfriend. She had bruising on her arms and legs. I remember the music was loud. I remember going upstairs with John Doe and I remember killing him. I took off my clothes. Teased him into thinking I wanted to have sex. He laid down on the bed and I climbed on top of him. I straddled him with my legs. The knife was cool in my hand and against the bare skin of my back. He was breathing heavy saying all the different ways he wanted to fuck me. I told him to shut up and close his eyes. When he did I was the one who started to breath heavy, with adrenaline spiking my blood I held the knife above him and stabbed him until he stopped breathing.

Chapter 3
13 years earlier
9:30
Hartford my house
I wake up in mommy and father's room, I'm in their bed and my tears from last night have dried on my face. I get out of bed and try to open the door but it's still locked. I hear someone come to the door and the lock turns. The door opens and mommy stands there with a big bruise on her cheek. I run in her arms and hug her gently. "Oh mommy are you okay?" "I'm fine baby, I'm fine." She puts her soft hands on my cheeks and tilts my head up so that I'm looking into her blue eyes. They're glossy with tears. I stand on my tiptoes and give her a kiss. "Mommy you can cry if you want to." She smiles a sad smile. "Oh baby I love you so much. I'm not going to let anyone hurt you, you know that right?" I nod my head yes. "Good. Now let's get you something to eat. I can hear you're tummy growling." She tickles my tummy and I giggle. We go in the kitchen and I help mommy make pancakes.

Chapter 4
Present day
7:30
My apartment
I'm sitting on the couch flipping through the channels when I hear a knock on my door. I click the TV off and open up the door. "Hey baby." "Hey Lilah what's up?" "What? I can't come over to see my girlfriend?" "Of course you can. Sorry just had a weird day." I shut the door behind Lilah and we sit on the couch. "Well what's so weird about it?" "Last night I blacked out from drinking. I remember what happened though." "Well...?" "I killed another guy." "Are you feeling guilty about it?" "No I just wish I didn't black out. I need to stop drinking, so that I can enjoy myself more and the kill." "Oh baby I can help you with that. I've been tracking these two guys Danny and Jerad. They'll be at lavish club tomorrow night. So we can kill them then. I'll make sure you stay sober." "Thanks Lilah you're the best girlfriend ever." "I know." I laugh and give Lilah a big hug. I brush her red hair off of her neck and kiss her pale freckled neck. I look into her green eyes and kiss her pink glossy lips. Her lip gloss tastes like cherries. "Come on lets go to bed." I grab her hand and we head to the bedroom. Lilah pushes me gently on the bed and climbs on top of me. Her skin is warm and smells of ivory shampoo. Her hands travel up my stomach taking my shirt off. Her lips move along my jaw and down to my neck. I cup her breasts through her shirt and bra. She groans and my thighs warm in response. I roll on top and strip her of her clothes. She then downs the same with me. We lay there her on top now breathing heavy, naked. Skin against skin, are body's exploring one another. Lips whispering words of love. We finish making love and just lay there in each other's arms until sleep takes us.

Chapter 5
13 years earlier
1:20
Hartford Park
I'm chasing butterflies my father sits on a bench watching me. Mommy sits next to him. Her bruises are all gone; it's been a week since father's hit her. Mommy smiles at me but I can see the sadness in her eyes. I run over to her. "Catch butterflies with me." "Not now baby." "Why?" "I'm giving your father company." I pout and cross my arms. "Please, please, please catch butterflies with me." Father nods his permission to mommy and she takes my hand and runs with me. Father catches up to us and picks me up. He puts me on his shoulders. "If you're taller than it's easier to catch them." I laugh and reach my hands up toward the sky. I look down at mommy and she looks happy. Father takes me off of his shoulders and puts me down. "Let's see how fast you can run. We'll race to the big oak tree." I put my feet into a running stance. "Ready princess?" "Yeah." Then the three of us run and laugh. When we reach the big oak tree we're out of breathe. We get home and mommy goes into the kitchen to start dinner. Father goes into the kitchen and comes back out with a beer. "Why do you always drink that?" father looks at me and smiles. "I like it, just like you like soda." "Yeah but soda doesn't make me mean." "You think I'm mean to you?" "No, not to me. You're mean to mommy." "Did she tell you that?" "No." "Then why did you say something like that?" "I don't know." I lie; I get up and grab a coloring book. I color while I wait for dinner. Mommy comes into the room. "Dinners ready guys." "What are we having?" "Pasta." "Yummy." I run to the table and slurp my pasta. "Eva eat nicely." "Sorry mommy." I finish my pasta nicely then go back into the living room to color. I color and watch TV until I have to go to bed. It's eight o'clock and father's already drunk. I go to my room and change into pjs. Mommy comes in my room and tucks me into bed. "Did you have fun today?" "Yeah I liked how you and daddy were laughing together." "Yeah I liked that too." "Mommy, if beer makes daddy into a bad man then why does he still drink it?" "I don't know sweetie." "Does he like hurting you?" "Eva please don't talk like that." She kisses my forehead. "Goodnight baby." "Goodnight." She leaves my room and closes the door behind her. I wake up in the middle of the night to father screaming and mommy's cries.