Dear Dad 2

It's sad how after so long of me wanting a relationship with you,
you still don't care or long for one.
It's sad how after so long of me forgiving you,
you still make the same mistakes.
It' sad how after so long of crying and wasting time regretting,
I still forgive you and you still take advantage.
It's sad that after so long of asking "why",
you still don't have an answer.
It's sad that after so long of me being the only one that can see the hurt and pain in my eyes,
you still see nothing at all.
But the saddest thing is,
that when you do finally decide to fess up to your mistakes and fix what our "relationship",
I no longer care.
I no longer care for you,
your well being,
your worth to me,
your opinion,
that fact that you're my father,
nor the relationship we had.
Because how can you fix a relationship,
you've never had?

That's the saddest part.