Inside an Introvert's mind when in love |
I cannot believe it. Am I really doing it? What am I going to say to her? What if she doesnât like me? What if I upset her? Oh God! Why is it so hard? Weâve known each other for years. Whatâs wrong in finally meeting her? Nothing, right? But then whyâs my heart beating so loud? Why couldnât I just stay at home, be alone and enjoy my vacations. I should go back. This was a bad idea. Shouldnât have come here at all. But what will she think if I donât show up. Iâd just say I had some urgent work. Yeah thatâd be right. But would it be? She does know my college is off. Oh God! Help me. Doesnât makes much sense, does it. I know. These were the thoughts I had when I was going to meet her for the very first time. We were friends for over three years, but never once in those three years did we ever met, not even once. We only recognised each other through our WhatsApp Dpâs only. Crazy! Right. She knew all about me that was there to know. My good, my bad, even my worst. Every single thing about me, she knew about it. You see, I donât really trust people easily but she, I considered her to be one of the most important persons of my life. Not a single day went by when we didnât talk and yet we never even met once. âIâm one station awayâ I texted her. I was anxious, I wanted to turn back and go away. I was scared of the things that were completely imaginary and were far away from reality. In short the introvert part of me was taking over. Had it been anyone else but her, Iâd probably had made an excuse just to avoid meeting them. But not this time. I had decided not to let my introvertism get the best of me, after all it was her and Iâve never been able to say no to her. Not once. âThis is Vaishali Metro Station.â The announcement reminded me that Iâve reached my destination. Finally, Iâm going to meet her. Ainât no turning back now. After waiting a couple of minutes I saw her. As she walked towards me her long hairs swayed perfectly from side to side, there was a hint of recognition and amusement in her eyes, her face seemed so angelic despite the mischievous grin she had on her lips. While everyone usually dresses up on their first meeting to impress each other she was there looking as simple as she could despite the beauty she was. I swear, all the romantic poems Iâd ever read came to life in that very moment. She was a poem that even words would fail to express. Even time seemed to have slowed down to gaze on her. I used to read a lot of poetry and in that very moment as I looked at her, awe-stricken, I relived the vision that Wordsworth, Keats or Byron would have had when they wrote about their lovers. You see, Iâm fluent in three languages, each of them with their own vast vocabulary and yet I failed to come up with a single reply to anything she asked. All I could do was to nod and try my best not to get lost in her black eyes. Is this real? It couldnât be. Do God even make such perfect people anymore? âHey, you alright? You seem a little lost.â Her words brought me back to life abruptly. Only this time reality was better than the dream. We spent couple of hours talking. Well, to be fair she was the one talking and I was mere listening, letting her voice fill up the void in me. We talked about everything, about her, about me, âbout how she thought I wouldnât turn up, we talked our hearts out. It was the first time that I was having a conversation with someone without planning my escape or trying to rip my eyes out, just kidding. But it was in fact the first time that I enjoyed company of a person more than I enjoy solitude. All the time that she was talking I was listening to her ever so intently like my life depended on it. There was a happiness in me that Iâd never felt before and I knew she was the mere reason of it. Thatâs the story how three years, thousand phone calls and million messages later an introvert fell head over heels in love with an extrovert. To be continued... |