Living a Life Without You

Living a Life Without You
A life without you would be hell on Earth
A dreary pit of misery
Even though I hate to admit it
I don’t think I could be without you
No one to hold me tight through the night
No one to fight away the demons in the night
The ones that fill me with panic and fright
No one to reassure me that I have a purpose
No one to help me through life
No one to shower me in love
No one to protect me
No one to take silly pictures with
No one to make cute nicknames
No one to go on adventures with
No more pictures together
However, no more worrying
No more pain
No more hoping youre okay
No more fretting about you being in the arms of another woman
Because I know you already will be
No more hoping youll never leave me
No more wishing I knew how to make you happy
Because she already does
No more heartbreak and fear of starting over
Because I already will have after you leave
No more dreaming of our family
Because maybe we aren’t supposed to have one
No more baby names and Pintrest ideas
For a child we weren’t supposed to have
No more late nights wondering where you are
Because I know youre in her arms
And shes better than me otherwise you would’ve never left
Sometimes I’ll wonder how you are
But I’ll know youre in a better place and happier
Since I’m not there
Since I’m gone
Beginning again for the last time
Pursuing a career since a family isn’t something that could work for me
Because I’m so mentally fucked up
Because I’m controlling
Because I’m a nothing
Living a life without you would be hell for me
But paradise for you
Atleast no more memories
Who am I kidding
Maybe all I’m supposed to be is a single childhood memory
A mistake made
To get you to your better life
Living a life without you would be hell for me but happiness for you