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The loss of an unborn child is deeper than one may think.. |
I felt you growing inside me as my stomach gradually increased in size and stretch lines started to appear I felt every wave of nausea and tasted the bitterness of every vomiting episode I saw you on the scans moving about with such energy and with your facial shape just like the others I heard your perfect heartbeat with such clarity, beating in a systematic rhythm And yet... I never got to see your face Or feel overjoyed at your first smile ... and so my heart aches I never got to hear your laughter Or the chatter of your first words ... and so my heart aches I never got to wipe your tears Or stay up all night comforting you when ill ... and so my heart aches I never got to touch your soft skin Or hold your hand even when you no longer needed me to ... and so my heart aches I never got to hold you in my arms Or carry you when I no longer should ... and so my heart aches I never got to introduce you to your siblings Or see you share in their daily joys and laughter ... and so my heart aches I never got to see your first crawl Your first steps Your first day at school Your first... everything ... and so my heart aches I never got to show you love Or care Or gentleness Or compassion. ... and so my heart aches I never got to teach you about God And His mercy And His love And His everlasting promises ... and so my heart aches I know that God never burdens a soul with more than it can bear. I know that this was always destined for you and me. I know that God has taken you for a wisdom that only He knows of. I know that what God wills is always best for us. ... But still my heart aches I pray that time will lighten the heaviness in my heart. I pray that every tear that falls from my eyes becomes a river for you in Paradise and that God reunites me with you there. ------------------- ~Some people may think that the loss of an unborn child is not significant or challenging, but 'those who judge, do not understand, and those who understand, do not judge.'~ |