Hidden Is My Soul

There is a curtain,
Between me and all that’s real.
Which keeps the world from falling down,
But it rejects my goal to leave.

I always wear a mask,
To keep my true self hidden,
For I fear that my existence,
Is somehow forbidden.

There is a barrier,
Dividing me from all I know.
I try to hide what’s inside,
For I can’t trust my soul.

I can only watch from afar,
While the world around me burns.
Still, I keep my mask on tight,
I don’t dare reveal my core.

This isn’t really living,
Cowering in my head.
Trying to block out the world,
Which I swear wants me dead.

For living in a separate plane,
Cut off from the cosmos,
Is a very troubling consciousness,
And one that’s not worth living.

But I still won’t venture out,
For this unseen distance spans for miles,
Discouraging me from trying to share,
What is really held inside.

So for now I’ll suffer,
Trapped within my own head.
Maybe soon I’ll dare to leave,
The prison hidden in my head.

Until then I’ll stay,
Caught up in my toxic thoughts.
I want to unmask who I really am,
But the darkness won’t give it up.

Hidden is my soul….