Used to sadness

Looking for brightness in the dullness of life,
Used to sadness-
I'm still waiting for the end of this dreary night
Dont know if its love or depression
There might be some reason or may be theres none.

Feeling darkness inside me,I searched for light in the world
Used to sadness-That light now blinds me
And all the love i'hve got feels undeserved.

Caring so much for the ones i love
I have always failed to make them feel that/like its enough
Hoping for them to love me one day
Gave all i had,Got used to sadness
To stand here with nothing today...