Have You Been There?

"What? She's not a virgin?!"

I heard Tyro. We're on a class and everyone of us--even our teacher--gotten shocked when he shouted like that.

"Hey, Tanya. I regret it, just forget what I told you yesterday"

I gulped hard. Sweats started flowing in every part of my skin and 'nervous' come embraced my whole system specially when everyone started gossiping about what Tyro just shouted.

"Everyone--Hey, everyone. Listen to me!"

The whole class gone silent when our teacher shouted angrily.

"Stop this kind of nonsense. If you cannot respect me then go ahead and leave this room, immediately!"

I feel relieve when our teacher said those. But...even though he'd continue lecturing again, I feel them starring at me. I felt insecure. Maybe because of what they've heard? What they've found out?

I don't really know.

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Walking home, my classmates blocked me in a well hidden place near our house. I don't know why, they are smirking and I feel nervous again.

"Well, well, well. I thought everything on you is perfect"

Tatiana said sarcastically while playing with some strands of my hair.

"Did your mother know it?"

She asked.

"No."

I said while shaking my head. Again, she wears her demonic smile. I thought she would gonna turn her back into mine but unexpectedly, 'they' throw eggs on me. I've gotten shocked, my eyes widen, I can't breathe, I my knees started shaking and my whole system got nervous again.

Why are they doing this? I did something bad?

"Here's the 'most intelligent in class' is much worst than us! HAHAHAHAHA!"

"Worst bitch!"

I gulped again. Is there something wrong with it? Yes, I'm no longer a virgin but does it matter?

Like Tyro, I regretted it too.

Another day, I thought everything will go smoothly but...

"Give me your answers"

Tyro whispered to me. We're on a quiz currently and this man kept on asking for my answers.

"No"

"I'm gonna tell your family about you having sex every after school if you did not give me the answers"

I got nervous again so I secretly gave him the answers. I thought he would keep him to himself until I knew he's sharing it to the whole class. I sighed, it's fine with me, i don't want my family to know what has happened, my brother's in the jail and my parents didn't know why he got arrested, I don't want my family to add some burden so I think it's fine to give and follow what my classmates will ask.

Even if it's not fair.

"The highest is Laura, what happened to you Ms. Tanya?"

Even though it hurts so much.

Another day, I'm here in the ladies room being stocked up in one of the cubicles. I did not go to class, crying while starring at my phone. My classmates posted something 'about me' and it was publicized. I just don't wanna face them, I thought they will not tell my family about it but here it goes.

My mother's on the way now.

I don't know what to do. The post says I'd always go every night and making out with some guys and I 've always performed some bitchy and whatsoever.

I knew this is so much but what can I do?

I thought they would keep this to themselves. I'm very stupid for trusting them.

Days after...

"Sorry..."

They apologized. I close my eyes and didn't talk to them.

For what?

Sorry for what?

They didn't even know the story behind the issue, it's not even an issue.

"We didn't know that you were raped by your own brother."

One tear fell down. Yes. I'm a rape victim.


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