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A collection of my short poems. Enjoy! |
You know you've lost Your love for someone When you can no longer imagine A future with them. I lean in to you Your nose brushes mine Every touch sends shivers Our hands gently entwined Closer, closer together and Our lips brush, just barely Creating galaxies Within me-- I open my eyes and Wake from my daydream. I learned in books that when you're in love It's like fire or falling or breathlessness when they're around But through loving you I've come to realize It's like walking into a house and knowing it's home It's like slowly coming to the realization That when they're not with you, You can still be whole and yourself But there's something missing Some unexplainable part of yourself That only you and the other person know about It's being happy and full of hope When a moment ago You thought you'd never be able to feel those things again Every time I touch you It's not a burst of fire or electricity like all those books described It's just warmth And peace And comfort It's the calm assurance that you'll always be there And you'll always be My home I'm dying and You can't see The light that's gone from my eyes Like someone blowing out a candle I'm extinguished I am nothing I am gone You asked me once what my biggest fear was. At the time, I didn't know. Now I do. I'm scared that I'm using you to get over him. I'm scared that everything I do is only in my self-interest I'm scared I'll never be able to get over him I'm scared that everything that happened Between me and him was all just to trick me I'm scared that if I show you my true self You'll go running for the hills I'm scared I won't be able to love you fully Because of what he did But most of all, I'm scared of the crushing, empty, broken feeling Of the knowledge that the person I loved most in the world Didn't love me anymore; I'm scared of that happening with you I'm more than scared; I'm terrified Because if I ever have to feel that feeling again, I fear I won't live to see the end. The passion I feel Is not of mismatched spirits Clinging to a hope of thriving together When their roots cannot entwine. The passion I feel Is not that of desperate men In love with their last breath As if there's hope for salvation. The passion I feel Is that of two souls melding together Until not even the whisper of discord Could tear them asunder. The black waves threaten to pull me with them Out to the deadly sea, pulling solid ground out From under my feet with every tug. The stars spin above me, In some kaleidoscope of dreams Soon to be lost to the crushing waves, The endless depths of the unforgiving sea Dry your tears, child; There is nothing stronger Than a heart willing to break And mend itself once more, To pick up the pieces and love another. I knew I loved you When even the stars Murmured your name Like whispers of an old legend. I knew I'd lost you When my heart spoke of you That way too. I never much liked The idea of a rebound. Using someone else To get over the one you love Never seemed right to me. But I never knew Until I was there myself Consumed by the need To erase your image, Prove to myself that I could want another Be loved by another. And despite how wrong it is, I have been all the better for it. Your love isn't just something I know. It's something I feel When your arm wraps itself around my waist, When you send butterfly kisses Winding down my cheeks. It's something I feel When your words fail And you can't keep the tears from falling. It's something I feel When the only thing that feels like home Is your two eyes and a steady heartbeat. Maybe he doesn't see What good he inspires But I can see Fire in his bones Embers in his eyes And an inferno in his soul. The flames lick across my skin And I burn I am jealous of the stars That get to shine upon you When I am lightyears away He was holding me underwater With his affection And was feeding tainted air to my lungs. It was intoxication of the worst kind. When all you are is lost to me When your familiar soul no longer resides in mine When the brokenness I speak Is a language you've forgotten— I become that pain— That pain that speaks in lost tongues That pain that turns to poison That pain that consumes all of me Until the only things left Are the traces of me you've returned That only still exist because They're all I've left of you. I missed you like a moonless night— I searched for you everywhere And couldn't find you, But without you there was nothing Except pinpricks of light From old galaxies They told you to have high hopes But they forgot to tell you That if you set them too high, You've got so much farther to fall You know you've lost your love for someone When you can no longer imagine a future with them |