i will teach you better

when
did i stop
being
human?

what
made you
think
that someone
as
magnificent
as i
was made
for your
benefit?

who
taught
you
that
my body
was for
you
to
control?

how
can you
defile
me
without
even
blinking
an
eye?
-i want my humanity back



he
asked me
to
date
him

i said
‘no
i’m really
sorry
i can’t
right now’

i
was
not
sorry

it wasn’t
that i
didn’t want
him
in that
moment

there was
no
‘right now’

i
didn’t
want him
ever
-but it wasn't what i said



if only
i could
shrink
into
myself
and
disappear
-you taught me to be small



i’m sorry
that
i never
lived up
to your
expectations
-i should never have had to carry that weight



pussy
(noun)
1. female genitalia
2. cowardly, weak, effeminate
-why are these the same?



i believe
that
monsters
are
made

created by
loneliness
and fear
and hate
-this is what you made me



you said
to be
polite

you said
to be
proper

a
polite
girl
does
what
she is
told

a
proper
girl
obeys

you
taught me
please
i’m sorry
thank you
my bad

you
taught me
yes

you also
taught me
no thank you
i’m sorry but no
not right now

you
taught me
to
thank
and
apologize
for what
i didn’t
want

dear daughter
never
ever
be
afraid
to say
“no”

dear daughter
do
not
apologize
for
things
that you
are not
sorry
for
-i will teach you better