Family Appreciation

As I talk to my Mom these days as She is lives in Assisted Living Nursing Home over in Indiana where My sister Cindy Lives also who helps takes care of My Mother needs. But yet I have not seen My Mother physically in the last four months. My is frail and hard to understand at times because she has Lymes Disease or somewhere in there. As for Me, my other sister Caralyn who still lives in the Twin Cities told me about my Mom/s past leading her to live down here now. Caralyn told me also about the Sadness when i Disappeared so to Speak for over nine years. Let me start this part with That I Really Do Love Mother and Really Appreciate Everything She has Done for Me through and out my life. I did manage probably to Drive My Mom a Little crazy or so before and after graduating High School. She did manage too handle some of the music Iistened at that time. As remembering All the Sadness that I brought out my Family, It still tears at Me somewhat with my Past of me not being seen for those years. I was Told My Mom was Really wondering What happened to Me while not being seen. She was Sad Me for Me not knowing where I was during those years. Plus she was wondering All those Years what Happened to me. Basically I lost my phone eventually at one point in time then just never bothered back. Did manage to get another phone by 2003 or so. There was contact for awhile then also. Managed to keep that for a few years. To be not in contact with people was Really Dumb and Stupid of Me. People do Really Care No Matter What Happens To You Know Matter What. With Me I have Two Kids in which I have No Contact At All Right Now. That is Due to the Same circumstances as to Mom and Sisters. Unfortunately I still Try to Deal with those Facts with Me today. I Do Carry Pain with this Issue at Times. Learning to have No contact for over Does Really Hurt depending on when that ever occurs. To Ever be in a Better Situation to Make Me personally Happy, I will Ever So Happy One Day.My Sisters Know My Situation and Would So So Glad to See Me Be Better Somewhere Else. To have a lot money would Really Cure A Lot of My Problems. I have told them somethings I would ever Love to do i Life Now. I have been a Certified Nursing Assistant for a number of years and fell out of that. To work in the Restaraunt industry for a Number of years now. I do Enjoy this. To be a Dishwasher for now and todo something Else these Days I will be Very Glad to do that One Day for The and Myself. For I am 6' 2" and weigh about 160 usually, I know this because I Donate Plasma to help me Survive. I do not mind doing this. I have Donated Plasma for at least the last ten years I do Believe. I have told them Culinary would be good in my case, as you can tell i am Skinny need to be a little Bigger. Sure Why Not. To Ever Feed Family and Friends would be a Lovely Desire One Day. Start with one step, Happiness with Me to Settle These issues. Love My Mother Dearly I Do as well For as My Sisters Also. Just Make Everyone Happy and Proud plus to be Somewhere would be Oh So Nice.Bless Them All.