How I Wish

Oh how I wish
to lay down
on the carpet
in the blissful peace
of the music
in my ears
let it soak in
deep into my bones
into my soul
and cleanse the stress
the worry, the hurt
the need for contact
for love, for loyalty
to cleanse me of my
obligations
as few as there are
to let me wallow in
the silence of
my room
the room so filled
with pins, art
and memories
yet so empty
of what I really want
what I really need
to stay sane
as I wake each day
and sit at my desk
and fill my hours
with things that make me
need the music
to clean my
everdarkening soul