I'm not making this harder for myself

I'm not making this harder for myself
Though time is showing me its very ways
I can make a move and then get to wealth
In the end I win when I spend my days

The truth is that I went for thirty-eight
No cheating even, or blasphemous night
I've got a million books and songs to rate
And even now, I look to check the light

I never thought that I would live this long
I slept each night with awe and wonder in
As long as I stay true, never do wrong
I'll exit life without this mortal sin

No one cares what happens to the spoiled fox
My attention blackens with each loud knock