Too Hard to Pretend

one reader learns that not everything is as it seems as he spirals deeper into his mind

These are the scenes where I'm demotivated
Where the thoughts in my head are escalated
When I'm alone things are under control
When I'm alone I can turn of the world
I want to escape but I can't lose my mind
As I try to live a conventional life
Free of the trees my pastime slaughtered

Sometimes I need to be a loner
I'm happy being a loner
Tom, Jack and Jill aren't really real
I'm on the edge and I want to give up
I feel like everything is too much

No one understands why I like being alone
They want me to be always accessible
Emotionally I'm on the edge of knife
Because that's how I learned to survive
Having coffee with Dick Tracey at five

If I'm alone then they'll never find
The truth about me
That I'm losing my mind
And it's too hard to pretend
So I stay away from my friends

I pick up on everybody's energy
Now I just think something's really
Wrong with me
Life is overwhelming and
I need to breathe
Everything is too much too much


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